A negative attitude towards education will eventually lead to a feeling of under estimating my abilities. My insecures and fears have affected my education. I have a fear of failing. I tell myself I can not complete school assignments. So I do not complete those tasks. I do not look at education as a privilege but as something I have to do. All my life I heard, education is the key to success. That might be true but I am not interested in the school work. Since this is the case, I am not as focused as I could be in school. I do not take my education serious. I would like to change my attitude towards education. I will not blame anyone to justify for the way I think. I will identify the problem. I will explain the problem. When I do this, I will better understand the problem. I will solve this problem.
A twelve step program is for people who are addicted to drugs. The first step is to acknowledge the problem and stop being in denial. I am not in rehab but the steps are similar to change my attitude towards education. There similar because a person can not force a drug abuser to go to rehab. The drug abuser must make that decision by them selves. In my case, no one in my life can make me become a better student or change my attitude towards my education. I will have to make this decision on my own. I am ready for this change. My problem is, I do not believe in myself. If I do not understand a task, I will get upset. Then I will eventually want to quit that certain task. I will admit that I have the attitude of a quitter. When I have the whole world to blame, it makes me feel better about my attitude towards education.
My fear is that if I keep up this negative attitude, I will not complete college and will not be successful in life. All my life I heard that I will get further in life with a college degree. I want my degree but I will not accomplish this if I’m telling myself other wise. It’s ironic because I see myself being successful in life and I know I’m smart. When it comes down to actually doing the work, I start to get lazy. I tell myself the task is too difficult and I can not do it. My mentality is; what’s the point of trying when I know I do not understand. I feel like I am the only one who can solve this problem. If I do not solve this problem, I will not accomplish anything in my life. I want to believe in myself and stop my negative attitude.
My major is business management. Since I could remember my least favorite subject was math. Business has a lot to do with math. I want to change my major because I am scared to fail. Math is challenging. I try my best to avoid the subject. People wonder why I choose business as my major, if I dislike math so much. My mom was the reason for my decision. My mom has done so much for me and I do not want to disappoint her. She makes me feel like I can do anything I put my mind to. I don’t want her to think I’m a failure. It’s sad that another person has this much faith in me but I don’t have faith in myself. My problem is I am undecided as to what career I want to pursue. I wonder how I can be happy when I have so many negative thoughts about my education. I want to clean up my act.
I have acknowledged my problems. I’m ready to change my attitude towards school work. In the beginning of my story, I mentioned a twelve step program for drug abusers. I have to go through a similar process. My change will not happen over night but I know it will happen. I have to take my time with school work and ignore that voice inside of me that says “I can not do it.” I have to change my way of thinking. My education is a privilege and it is my duty to never forget that. Math is one of my fears that I will over come. I will pass math and all my other classes. I have to understand that making someone else happy is not worth it, if I am miserable. If my mom does not respect my alternative career choice, than she will have to figure out a way to accept it. Failure is not going to be in my vocabulary. I want to become a better student. Most of all, I want to become a better person.
Hey Danielle,
ReplyDeleteI really liked the way you included your personal thoughts and why you feel like you have to go through college to get the life you want. I can relate to the way you think you're bad at math. I feel the same exact way and I am a nursing major. In your first paragraph however, you're last sentence should be your thesis. You can write how motivation brings happiness in education. Maybe teachers can help boost up the student's motivation? You can also give examples of how we can change our mentality towards the same routine in school everyday. How will you change your attitude? I liked how you compared rehab and education. It is true we do have to be the ones to decide what's best for us and we have to be the one to change.
Hi Danielle,
ReplyDeleteThis post is really on its way to becoming a great essay. Review the writing, looking for places to smooth it over (repetitions, awkward transitions). In addition, think if you can use anything from our class as a text /video you can quote.
A great start - you really know yourself and are brave enough to admit it. I admire you.